Showing posts with label 8Tracks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 8Tracks. Show all posts

Saturday, September 7, 2013

The Banshee: A Playlist


     I've made another playlist that requires explanation! 
  While Cathy and I were talking about our excitement for Halloween (two months is not too early to get pumped....), we started devising plans for playlists. If you are beyond giddy that the season of haunts and candy is rapidly approaching, check out Cathy's new playlist: "Put On Your Costumes." It's full of Halloween-coated happiness!

     I, on the other hand, couldn't really figure out what I wanted to do. After much deliberation, I decided on a playlist about ghosts. Then, somehow over the next day, it evolved into an entire story surrounding folklore about the mythical Banshee. I'm not going to pretend I did a ton of research, but I tried to at least go beyond Wikipedia, and found a description on a website called "Your Irish."

 Here's a bit of info about the Screaming Banshee of Ireland:
"The first [of many legends] is that she is the ghost of a young woman who was brutally killed and died so horribly that her spirit is left to wander the world, watching her family and loved ones warning them [through an ear-deafening screech] when a violent death is imminent."
  According to the website, rather than thinking of the Banshee as an evil hag who drives her victims insane and brings about violent death (which I guess is a common school of thought in the world of folklore), Irish legend favors these ideas about the Banshee:
"The Banshee does not ‘bring’ death but warns that death is near and this gives the family a chance to prepare and it is not necessarily a violent death it may be of a family member that has lived to 106 years of age! She is there as an escort to ensure that the loved one passes safely to the other side."

      Somehow, these two descriptions about the Banshee culminated in my brain as a work of fiction.
Also, TW for some violence against women, I'm sorry :/
     The subject of this playlist was once a young woman who was brutally murdered in the middle of winter. Because of the emotional trauma of such a violent death, her soul remained on the Earth as a Banshee. At first, she does not realize what she has become. She is uncontrollably transported from home to home, suddenly flooded with an overwhelming sense of dread. The intensity of this emotion causes her to screech at the top of her lungs, for somehow she knows a death is about to occur. Leaving each family stunned, the woman is given no choice but to follow each victim and watch his or her demise. Her task makes itself known; she is to help these souls cross over to the other side. 

     When these victims perish, she appears to them. Some are relieved that death has finally come after a long, happy life. Some are children, confused at the very concept. The Banshee greets them all uncertainly, and eventually understands that she must explain to them their fate. Only when the victims are assured that someone knows of their death, that they are not just a body rotting with no one to care, do they cross over. This is why the Banshee's task is so vital: she gives the warning.

     But she did not receive the same consolation. The Banshee was murdered in the frost of a lonely wood, and though perhaps her family, too, was warned of death's approach, her mutilated body was never found. A funeral was never arranged, for they still held onto a lingering hope that maybe it was still a mistake, maybe she just ran away, maybe she'll be back in a little while. And so, the Banshee is unable to move on with the other spirits. For however brief or lengthy their meeting, the other souls cross over. But she is left on Earth, utterly alone. When she is not giving a warning, she cannot be seen by humans. And even so, her voice only echoes in each home for a moment or two. The Banshee exists only to aid death's victims, and at the end of each encounter, she ends up in isolation. 

     With the trauma of her own murder still weighing heavily upon her psyche, the constant presence of death makes the Banshee grow cold and pessimistic. Every demise brings flashbacks of her own. Every moment of loneliness becomes maddening. She begins to feel sick with feelings of hatred, isolation, dread, and bitterness. Her appearance no longer resembles the young woman she was. Instead, her eyes have grown hollow and black, her skin has become nothing but a thin sheet over rattling bones, and she has begun to notice that the souls she greets in their transition are increasingly afraid of her.

     At first, their frightened reactions serve as comfort. Her demonic exterior makes these victims feel as upset and horrified as she did after her murder. But soon, their tearful eyes and tensing shoulders no longer bring even a small sense of joy. She grows numb to joy's company. And not long after, she grows disturbed by its very presence. She begins to see herself in each person. Their fear and confusion mimics her own. Upon these subtle realizations, rather than forcing her into a deeper depression, her sense of compassion swells. As the Banshee's desire to help grows, her physical and mental state embody a figure of quiet kindess. Though her pain never quite fades, she begins to find solace in her temporary connections with departing souls. She begins to find meaning in aiding others, and easing their anxiety-ridden minds.

     Though her human form was tragically murdered before she had accomplished anything, the Banshee finds in death a sense of purpose far greater than any she would have experienced in life. 


     For the cover art, I edited this beautiful painting by Mark Demsteader. 
All of the songs on this playlist are sung by women, as to reflect the character in my story.

The Banshee
  1.  The Ghost Who Walks by Karen Elson
  2. Okay by Flyleaf
  3. Every Single Night by Fiona Apple
  4. Dark Paradise (Cover) by vindicatedmess
  5. Winter Is All Over You by First Aid Kit
  6. Touch by Daughter
  7. Sadness Is A Blessing by Lykke Li 
  8. I'm So Sick (Acoustic) by Flyleaf
  9. Me and the Devil by Soap&Skin
  10. About Your Funeral by Soley 
  11. Timshel (Cover) by Kina Grannis and her sisters
  12. Misguided Ghosts by Paramore
♥ Happy Listening ♥

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Making Me A Fighter

     The Katy Perry phase I mentioned in my last post was centered around one song in particular, "Who Am I Living For?" I'd be lying if I said this wasn't because the lyrics reminded me so much of Daenerys Targaryen, the most empowering character of all-time ever and my khaleesi for the rest of my days, from the HBO show Game of Thrones and George R.R. Martin's A Song of Ice and Fire book series.

I mean, look at these lyrics:
"It's never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called,
Standing on the front lines when the bombs start to fall. 
I can see the heavens, but I still hear the flames calling out my name."

     Inspired by this, I devised plans for a playlist about Daenerys in my travel journal, originally titled "Dany, Pop Princess." Obviously, the title had to go, but the theme remained the same: empowering pop powerhouses to narrate Daenery's rise to complete badassery.

I'm proud to finally present, Making Me A Fighter.

      I'm very proud of this fanmix (which also makes an excellent workout playlist, I might add), and all of the thought I put into selecting each song and determining the order of its appearance. I'm also quite happy with the artwork I designed for it. With that in mind, I'll quickly take you through some of the choices I made.
 
Season One
1) Rootless - Marina and the Diamonds. Chosen to match the fleeing of Dany and her brother, "The Beggar King." Though Daenerys expresses a deep desire to go home, nothing resembling 'home' exists anymore.
2) Who Am I Living for? - Katy Perry. Chosen to show the frightening but truthful feeling Dany has that perhaps there is greatness in store for her.
3) Domesticated - VersaEmerge. Chosen because though Daenerys is the wife of a Khal, she was never meant to just be "someone's wife." The Iron Throne is not meant for her brother or her son, even; it's for her.
4) My Blood - Ellie Goulding. Chosen for Dany's decision to trade her son and succumb to dark magic in an effort to save her husband.
5) Drive My Soul - Lights. Chosen for the realization that it is time to let go of her husband, as afraid as she may be.
6) Last Hope - Paramore. Chosen for Daenerys' emergence from the flames with her newborn dragons at the end of Season One.

 
 Season Two 
7) Scared of Lonely - Beyoncé. Chosen for Daenerys' desperation and fear for the death of, or abandonment by, her khalasar at the start of this season. 
8) You've Got Time - Regina Spektor. Chosen because of the lyrics, "Remember all their faces, remember all their voices. Everything is different the second time around." She must appear strong and take risks to save her people. There is no one to save her and her khalasar but Daenerys herself.
9) The Outsider - Marina and the Diamonds. Chosen to show Dany's relationship to Qarth and its people.     
10) Dreams So Real - Metric. Chosen for Daenerys' journey through the House of the Undying. Though she sees strange visions and loved ones from the grave, she must suppress fear and continue on by herself.  
11) Bring Me Down - Kanye West.  Chosen to illustrate Daenery's final push into the realm of a royal mindset. When Pyat Pree, Xaro Xhoan Daxos and (in the show) Doreah think they can betray her, she punishes them ruthlessly and regains her power, along with her dragons. I especially think the lyrics, "They gon' have to take my life before they take my drive, 'cause when I was barely livin', that's what kept me alive" applies to Dany. She came from nothing, and will persevere. 


 Season Three
12) Fighter - Christina Aguilera. If I had to pick one anthem for Daenerys, it would be this. Everything she's been through has made her both badass and fiercely compassionate. She began as a meek little girl, learned to stand up for herself, and evolved into a legendary and insanely inspiring Fighter. 
13) Beat It - Michael Jackson. Chosen to illustrate the way in which men try to fight Daenerys. I love the lyric, "Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man," because Dany always gives men the option to surrender peacefully, but their masculine pride leads to their downfall.
14) Bring the Noize - M.I.A. Mainly chosen for the lyric, "Just 'cause I'm a mum don't make me thick." Daenerys' compassion and motherly character traits only make her stronger, though ignorant opponents perceive them as signs of weakness. And so, she is ready to crush them into dust.
15) One Beat - Sleater-Kinney. Chosen because I find this song to be very empowering. The song instrumentally and vocally sounds so powerful. Lyrics on the topic of rising and discovering don't hurt either.
16) Handlebars - Flobots. Chosen to match the immensity of Daenerys' string of conquers in the last season. If she wants to do something, she will sure as hell achieve it. And with her track record of freeing slaves, stopping rapes, and having an unfailing aura of chosenness throughout the show, the lyrics "my cause is noble, my power is pure" fit all too well.

     Maybe it's strange that I put this much effort into a playlist, but I'm very proud of this creation. I have never been empowered by a character like I have been by Daenerys Targaryen, the impact of which is made even more meaningful by the fact that one time I heard Emilia Clarke say in an interview that if one woman felt empowered by Dany, then she'd done her job. I'm that one woman, and there are thousands of more just like me. I've said it once and I'll say it again: I watch the scene of Daenerys buying and then freeing the army of the Unsullied every time I need to get pumped up for something. Afterward, I feel like I can climb Everest. And I caught up with seasons one and two of Game of Thrones simply because I saw the scene and wanted to know the context surrounding it. Dany means a lot to me, and my love for her keeps swelling as I make my way through the first book. I hope you take a listen and enjoy!

♥ Happy Listening ♥  

Monday, July 8, 2013

Patchwork

     I remember nearly a year ago typing up this whole post about my jean vest. Though I thought it was cool before, I never really wore it because of my own insecurities. Sometimes my anxiety manifests itself in clothing; in high school, whenever I wore a scarf to school on a cold day, I would almost always strip it off  when I stepped on campus and stuff it in my locker for the rest of the day. I was convinced everyone at school was staring at me judgmentally, thinking I was over-dramatic for sporting a scarf in Southern California. Even if it was legitimately cold enough to justifying wearing one, I would get nervous about what others were thinking of me as I passed, and the scarf would start to feel like a noose. It's weird, trust me, I know. But I must say that I am falling more in love with this vest the more I work on it. Soon, I'll be wearing it with pride :)


     I bought these swallows MONTHS AGO, along with the Edward Elric patch, so I could get free shipping on Amazon when I needed to buy a French-English dictionary for class. I'm really glad I didn't put them on until now... Cathy gave me the idea of ironing them onto the front! Then, last night, I added some cross-hatching just to make the front look a bit more interesting.


     I did the hap-hazard sharpie work at school, including writing "I put this on before I knew what cultural appropriation was" around the Calavera patch. I'm still debating just tearing off the patch and covering it with something new. Or maybe putting a thing white fabric over it and writing "no cultural appropriation" or something. I'm not sure yet. This is an on-going project.

      Cathy taught me to hand-sew with a needle and thread this weekend! During our trials and errors with making patches with iron-on transfer paper, an S came out unscathed (from the word "Dracarys." If you know what that means, getting fucking pumped for the patches Cathy is currently working on). There was nothing to do with it but throw it away, so I just sewed it on. I'm quite proud - it doesn't look bad for a first try!



     Last night and this morning, I felt the need to paint. I used to do it all the time; writing on T-shirts with fabric paint and handmade stencils was my thing a few summers back. I'm creative, but I can't draw or dance or make music or anything. But I love this sort of thing. Words are my favorite medium of art. They usually mean more to me than images do. 

    And if you didn't know, I'm currently obsessed with Game of Thrones. I took a quiz and am OVERLY EXCITED BEYOND ALL REASON that I was sorted into House Targaryen. That is unreal for me. I'm too happy about this. It's fine. And so on the top panel of my vest, I wrote a quote from A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, "...like their dragons the Targaryens answered to neither gods nor men." Ughhhh. It's just too good. Even if the quote is in reference to incestuous family practices, damn it's powerful.

     On the lower panel, I painted "Valar Morghulis," meaning "all men must die" in High Valyrian (a language in the Game of Thrones / A Song of Ice and Fire universe), simply because I love it so. Then I added Daenerys' response to it, for it reeks of feminism and Targaryen badassery: "All men must die, but we are not men."

Sidenote: I also made a House Targaryen playlist on 8Tracks called "Fire Made Flesh."

     So I've been a bit obsessed with patches in the last 24 hours. Though I've always been under the impression that Etsy is quite expensive, it's actually often comparable to Amazon. There's a wealth of patches I want to get. I also want to buy some Disney fabric to sew onto one of the panels. The problem right now is that I don't have any money. Once I get my first paycheck this fall, I've already decided that I am buying this necklace for myself. Perhaps once my savings account bounces back from my trip to Europe, I will allow myself to buy these patches as well. For now, let's just dream:

  1. Mini Embroidered "Mom" Tattoo by HeatherOstrow
  2. Mouse (Large) Iron on by TheFabricScene
  3. Harry Potter Death Eater Dark Mark by MTthreadz
  4. Dead Man's Hand Skull by SewMagicStitches
  5. Game of Thrones, Minimalist Tyrion Patch by StoriedThreads
  6. Embroidery Iron-On Patch by DianaRomeroHandmade
  7. 4 PC Rose Dead Skulls No Sew Iron On Appliques by TDFT
  8. Game of Thrones, Syrio Forel, Not Today Patch by StoriedThreads
 ♥ Happy Living ♥

Saturday, September 8, 2012

I Just Want to Feel Everything...


     I've been itching to make a playlist for a while now... This one I guess could be classified as "songs that put me in a trance" or maybe "songs that I make my head all twirly and sad." Haha. There isn't really a pattern or a story to these songs; just a feeling. A kind of hazy sadness (I hope that makes sense to you). Not that I was feeling that way today... I just needed this playlist. I needed an organized shelf to place all of the songs I've fallen in love with over the past few weeks. Most of it was heavily influenced by Cathy's trntbl. There lies a box of treasures in need of your listening ears.

I JUST WANT TO FEEL EVERYTHING.
  1. Breathe Me (Cover) - Aiden Grimshaw
  2. Hanging On (Solo Version) - Ellie Goulding
  3. I Am Not A Robot (Clock Opera Remix) - Marina and the Diamonds
  4. Swim Good - Frank Ocean
  5. Beautiful Boyz - CocoRosie
  6. Primadonna (BURNS Remix) - Marina and the Diamonds
  7. Born Into This Mad World (Mashup) - Gary Jules Vs. Lana Del Rey
  8. ‘81 - Joanna Newsom 
  9. Spirit of the Stairwell - Circa Survive 
  10. Every Single Night (Djemba Djemba Remix) - Fiona Apple
  11. Night - Zola Jesus
  12. Animal (Cover) - Sky Ferreira
  13. Spanish Sahara - Foals
  14. Young Blood (Renholder Remix) - The Naked and Famous